Hello my dear friends, it has been awhile since I have blogged, but tonight I felt the urge to write you something personal and vulnerable to my heart.
As Christians sometimes I believe avoid sharing our stories of pain, because since we are Christians we shouldn’t experience that. I for one am gulity of believing that lie, but tonight I am breaking that cycle in my life.
Last semester was honestly the lowest point of my entire life. There were several situations that brought so much pain, I honestly had lost hope that my heart would ever feel complete again. I stayed involved with church, and activites, but emotionally I was never there. My body became physically sick, because I wasn’t able to hold any food down, and I completely regressed inside of myself. I didn’t feel like seeing my friends, or my family. Mornings became a nightmare, because I hated waking up to the instant pain overwhelming my heart. I pleaded with God to take the pain I was feeling away. There were so many moments I began to question what my purpose in life was, or if there was even such a thing. I felt like I was drowning.
This summer I interned at a church in Michigan, this was decided because selfishly I was wanting an escape from the situations occuring in Oklahoma. I came to Michigan with a distorted view on my life, and I left having a restored heart.
I learned alot of things this summer that I would love to share with you, but somebody reading this needs to know that GOD GIVES OUR PAINFUL SITUATIONS MEANING. Please read that again. Our pain has purpose. Let me tell you that God used my story and my experiences that I was so ashamed of, in order to connect with young girls experincing the same.EXACT.thing. Sometimes God allows us to go through pain in order to help someone else. And it is so worth it my friends.
You have a choice right now to let these painful times to grow you, or destroy you. Choose to let it grow you. Chosee to learn from it, and know that God is always with you rooting for you. Through the pain,God placed specific people in my life to encourage me. Even though we experience pain, God doesn’t leave us stranded.
I want to leave you with this. This summer I biked 33.5 miles, and the next day my butt hurt so stinkin bad. I didn’t understand why our Pastor had us do this, because the pain I was feeling was REAL. He later explained that sometimed when we are headed in the right direction we will experience pain and sometimes it’s going to hurt. But the journey is so worth it.
Keep growing my friends. Much much love.